Heisuke's gloomy day

[Mibbie.]

( I'm going to RP Heisuke, and how he realizes how depressed he always is, and how he laughs to cover it up)

It was around noon, and the sun was shining brightly down on the Shinsengumi HQ. Everyone was in a good, happy, cheery mood, even Hijikata. But one person though...

He stayed inside. In the dark. He was leaning his back against a wall, sitting down with his knees up close to his chest, and his arms tight around his lower legs. He rested his chin on his knees, deep in his thoughts.

Heisuke: 'What am I here...why can't I laugh anymore...why can't I remember...how to be happy anymore?'

The young man closed his eyes painfully, burrying his face into his knees, his brown bangs covering all skin on his face.

[Otemba]

Shinpachi looked around the dojo lookin' for Heisuke. Lookin' high an' low for his partner.

Shinpachi yellin' around the dojo: Oi Heisuke! Where r u? Sano an' me are goin' to go out for Ramen! Don't u want to join us?

As he came around the corner he bumped onto Sano...

Sano: Oi shorty...did u find him?
Shinpachi: Nope! I wonder if he went into town by himself already?
Sano: Well, let's go maybe we'll probably bump into him sooner or later.

Those were the last words so they set our for the Ramen hunt.

[Mibbie.]

Heisuke stayed in the one place he was to begin with. Though, he looked up to see someone. It was a shinobi. An angry looking one, one, with many kunai's in his hands. The younger man gasped with complete shock and stood quickly, getting out of there as the sharp weapons were being thrown at him. He missed every single one. He ran out into the outside, stopping near an alley. He thought he had lost him. He took a few seconds to get his breath back.

Heisuke: Dammit...what the hell was that all about.

He sighed annoyingly as he looked down at his hip.

Heisuke: Now I'm in for it...I'm not even armed. damn it all.

Just as he was abotu to run again, he felt a hand wrap around his neck, hsi eyes wide, looking at the hands owner. It was that same spy.

Heisuke: W-what do you want!

The spy narrowed his eyes in anger.

Shinobi: Revenge.

[Otemba]

Walkin' down the street...

Shinpachi: I wonder if Heisuke gotten over our fallen comrade?
Sano: *pickin' his ear, now lookin' at his finger than to the short man*...I really don't know...when he died...it hit Heisuke hard...I don't see our conpadre happy much now a days...
Shinpachi: true...I wonder where he is?

[Mibbie.]

Heisuke's eyes shook with fear, but he narrowed his eyes as he thought up something quick, first, his kneed the shinobi in the groin, then, by default, the man dropped his kunai, but Heisuke caught it just in time. He tackled the man to the ground and held the weapon close to the shinobi's neck, Heisuke's teeth now gritted together in anger.

Heisuke: What's your biusness here?! Who sent you?!

[Otemba]

Still walkin' down the streets..wonderin' which tea house should they go rampage 'bout their delicious food. As they turned the corner they saw...a man bein' pinned down to the floor.

Sano: *narrowin' his eyes to see*...oi, is that heisuke?
Shinpachi: *doin' the same*...I can't really tell but the man on the floor don't look happy to be in that position.

They rushed to the place an' saw Heisuke so mad an' on the brink of insanity. They both unsheath their swords an' pointed to the shinobi.

Shinpachi: Heisuke! What's goin' on? What did this man do to ya?
Sano:*puttin' the edge of his sword on the man's forehead*...Speak!!

[Mibbie.]

Heisuke snapped out of it as he looked up at his two friends in shock.

Heisuke: G-guys...what are you-...

Heisuke just dropped it for alittle bit as he turned back to the shinobi, who was practically raging in flames. He didn't show any sign of fear.

Shinobi: You killed my comrades, therefore, I came to return the favor!

Heisuke narrowed his eyes as he put more pressure on his sword. He didn't look as feirce as he did before, but he still looked pretty pissed.

Heisuke: If your with the Choshu, then you have nothing to avenge. Look, you caught me on a bad day, so I might let you go if you speak up!

Said Heisuke strictly, getting very impatient. The shinobi got even more angry, as he looked up at the other as well.

Shinobi: Like I'll tell anything to you! I'm not a coward!

With that, Heisuke narrowed his eyes even more, slwoly, he turned the balde now so that the sharp on was against the man's skin, and it was almost like he was in another demention, as his eyes went crazed, and was about to slit the man's throat wide open.

[Otemba]

Sano saw Heisuke's reaction: Hey dude...its very early to shed blood...what would Hijikata say...u know that man is the devil himself...

Shinpachi couldn't help himself but to chuckly: Oi, Sano's right...Hijikata...plus...its violatin' one of the rules....

They didn't see Heisuke move or responde to them. So it was best to stay quiet an' wait 'til the shinobi said somethin.

Sano saw that the shinobi wasn't goin' to squeack anythin' so he decided to help...he slow cut on the shinobi's forehead...lettin' blood surface very slowly...

Shinpachi: Sano...

[Mibbie.]

By Sano's actions, Heisuke completely snapped out of his 'trance' and panicked, seeing the blood that was spilling from the shinobi's head very slowly. He gasped, 'trying' to stop himself, but he accidentally slit the man's throat anyway by his shaking hands. Heisuke's eyes went even wider. He immidiatly let go of the blade, his whole body shaking as he jolted back, his back hitting the wall that was right behind him.

Heisuke put his hands on his head, looking at the now dead man infront of him. He thought he was going nuts...but that wasn't the case...

Heisuke: I...I didn't mean to! I slipped...He-he attacked me! It was self defence! I didn't mean to kill him! I didn't mean to kill him...!

Mumbled Heisuke, slowly loosing control. He raised his knees up to his chest, burying his face in his knees, now shedding tears.

Heisuke: I didn't mean to kill him...

[Otemba]

Shinpachi saw Heisuke's reaction an' went towards his direction. Sano saw how Heisuke's hand just slipped...it cut the shinobi's throat open.

Sano:*sigh*...I'll dispose of the body. He gather the body an' started to walk towards the woulds.

Shinpachi kneeled down to see a very upset, cryin', frustrated Heisuke. He has never seen his fellow friend in such state. He slowly put an' arm around him.

Shinpachi: Its ok...I won't say nothin' if u don't?...ok?...Heisuke?....*speakin' softly*...ok?....its ok, whenever we get to the dojo...let's talk 'bout it. Ok. C'mon...

[Mibbie.]

Heisuke sniffled, slowly looking up at his friend painfully, and saw that he was trying to comfort him. The man's tears still fell, as he looked back down, nodding once. Silently thanking God that he had such understanding companions. His face was slightly red from how much he was crying, but slowly it stopped.

Heisuke: I-I'm sorry...I never meant to--...I don't even know why I acted like that...*Sniffles* My whole mind just went blank...

His voice was still quiet. slowly calming down. His head still felt light from the shock just a few seconds ago, but piece by piece he was getting past it...

[Otemba]

As they walked thru the streets...there was silence between them...it wasn't normal..they were the happy bunch, the party of the dojo..but Heisuke was the one who wasn't feelin' good today.

As they arrived at the dojo, Sano went to the kitchen to see if he could steal a couple of onigiri for them.

Shinpachi: Go get change an' we'll see you on the same spot we always go...whenever we want to talk.

[Mibbie.]

Heisuke sniffled, his head low as he nodded once, meaning an ok.

Heisuke: Alright...I'll be there...

He said as he walked down the hall, and slid the door that was connected to his room, he shut it behind him, and stopped for a few seconds, looking into nothing.

Heisuke: 'Whats happening to me...why did I kill him...It couldn't of just been an accident...it just couldn't have...'

The young man sighed, as he walked over to some cloths, and changed. after he was done, he was wearing something slightly similar to what he usually wore, but it was alittle different. He opened the door, and looked out slowly to see that he couldn't see his two friends yet, so he went over to the water founttain thingy, and turned on the water.

His hands were still stained with dry blood, so he placed it under the icy cold water, and the blood slowly smuged off, the redness flowing off mezmorizingly. By this, Heisuke sort of got lost in the spiral. His eyes became hollow again, and he started to breath heavily again, still washing off the blood, but slower.

[Otemba]

Tetsu was passin' by with some errands that Hijikata & Okita had order him to go get from the market. He saw Heisuke an' went to him...but before he could do that the damn pig got on the way.

Tetsu: Saizo?! Get away, I'm not in the mood to follow u around today so...ssshhhh fly don't bother me! *the Pig was 'bout to leap an' bite him but he freakin' kid was gettin' better at dodgin' the pig*....Hey Heisuke-san...what's the matter why are u in a daze~~

He saw that he was washin' his hands...blood?

Tetsu: *gasped*...Heisuke-san...what happened?

[Mibbie.]

Heisuke gasped as well from surprise, as he eyes shook, but were normal again, he turned around quickly, facing Tetsu with small drips of blood still falling off of his pawms.

Heisuke: T-Tetsu...!

Getting over this minor shock slightly, he just sighed, rubbing his forhead, all of a sudden getting a real bad headache. He didn't look squeezy tho, just alittle confused. He looked up again, his hand still against his forhead.

Heisuke:...N-nothing Tetsu...