Kytchen Open!!

[Otemba]

The members came back from their raid towards the restaurants around the city. They came in satisfied, but not enough. They love her food an' they missed it.

The afternoon soon came to be night. Susumu inside his room, got prepared for the night. Ayu was stirrin' in her sleepin' stage. He couldn't help her now....the fight is her's alone. Her body, was soaked. She was breakin' onto a cold sweat. Yamazaki leaned down to wipe the sweat off. But tonight he can't have his revenge, Hijikata ordered him not to go do sumthin' stupid. He wiped the sweat of her forehead once again an' left the room.

He covered his face an' disappeared on a cloud of smoke....vanished into the night...

Hijikata was in his office takin' a breather. He has cleaned before but this was too much...he was tired. None of the member nor the trio has asked 'bout Ayu. He was glad. He didn't want to explain things. But now that they had a surprise attack on one of the members he had to tell them to be on alert all the time. But than again, he has to explain why...

Yamazaki's room--

Ayu shot her eyes open, frighten as well. She looked around an' saw some familiar stuff.

Ayu: Susu's room....

She got up slowly...it hurt her so much just turnin' her head. She looked at how soaked she was in her yukata. She stood up an' went to his closet an' took out one of his. She took of her's an' noticed how her body was clean an' in bandages. A li'blush covered her cheeks...she went to go sit in the futon once again an' for some reason the nightmare came flashin' back...she huntched over an' stared to sob but, her sobs some came to be cries. She clutched her yukata. She wanted the horrible vision to go again...but they kept on comin'...

Ayu:*scream outloud*STOP!!!

[Mibbie.]

The sudden voice made Okita gasp. The was slightly kneeling down on the vernanda not far from her room. He was just giving his pig his evening dinner, but this was more important. He stood up staright, his eyes looking alert, thinking horrible thoughts that something bad must be happening to Ayu. He turned, and ran for her room, which was only a few yards away. He stopped, immediatly sliding open the door still looking cautioned. His eyes were wide as he heard sobs coming from the woman. He just tried to calm down, if he looked this fearful, he might just make it worse for her.

" Miss Ayu,"

Said Souji quietly as he went up near her, then beside her. He slowly placed a light hand on her shoulder, looking concerned. " You really need your rest...Your wounds need to heal..." Okita also wanted to ask why she was crying, though, what would be the point. He knew what it was, and just asking her would make her sob more. For now...he just wanted her physical scars to heal..but still, even then, a scar never fades...He learned that the hard way, and knew it was happening to Ayu, but she must have been through something much worse...

[Otemba]

He felt a man come in her room. She didn't wanted to look at him...she knew who he was. She had memorized evry members walk, talk, an' silhoutte. It wasn't that hard to learn such things. She was trained in so many arts. She felt his hand land on her shoulder gently, even though she winced. The wounds were still fresh, an' any slightest movement or touch with trigger pain. She cried to clean the tears that were constantly comin' out of her eyes but, it was useless the more she tried the more they came.

"Sorry...."

Was all she could say. She felt the necesary to tell him that. She felt ashamed....some shinsengumi member, who can't take care of things or be a good spy. She hated herself right this moment. She wanted to take her life....

"Okita-sama, what do u think of me? I know this is not ur business but....I just want to know...probably it could ease the pain I feel right now...can u please tell me...*her tears soon came again, but she kept a weak smile*....

[Mibbie.]

Souji was sort of relieved to see her smile, even if it was real little, but he also couldn't help the fact that he still felt guilt for her tears. He looked down, his eyes crescent, then he just looked back up, smiling alittle smile himself as he took his hand off of her shoulder, and curling both his hands behind his back.

"Well, I think your the most wonderful person here. I mean, even with your job and all, you can still make the other members happy by cooking for them. You feel alot of things most of the time, or just as I've seen, but you fight most of them off the best you can. Mostly just with the bad ones. Look, Miss Ayu, I don't really know what happened to you, but I'm just glad you survived it. All of us are. That's why I don't want you to cry anymore. Cuz we're all here for you, even me."

Said Okita as his smile grew kinder, his eyes crescent again as he waited for a reaction from her.

[Otemba]

She took a deep breath, what Okita made her feel a lot or somewhat better. She continued to wonder on her thoughts, once again goin' back to her nightmare. Tryin' her best to fight the demon that was eatin' her alive.

Ayu: "Thank you Okita...I don't know why I asked u that...but, I feel some relief in my heart knowin' that I'm useful to evry1..."

" I feel like trash...I've been raped twice by that guy...an' I can't do anythin' about it! I had him really close but, I couldn't do anythin'! I hate myself! I want to die! I want everythin' to stop...I constantly dream of this nightmare...even when I'm awake...I don't know what else to do or believe...I'm drowin' here.."

Her tears came to their familiar places. This time they were heavy an' they wouldn't stop...

Ayu:" That man took everythin' from me...I dont' think I ever experienced real love..."

[Mibbie.]

Okita felt his heart sink as her words struck him hard. They were so deep, so emotional. he sighed slightly under his breath, then smiled a fake, weak smile as he walked up close to her, carefully wiping one of her tears away with his index finger.

" Hey, you shoudn't give into the hell that he gave you...It would only cause you more pain then your already feeling. One man can't take everything away from you. Not unless you let him. I know its hard, I mean, I can't even imagine what you must have went through, but you have to be strong..."

As he finished speaking, he didn't know if those words would help or not, but they were true. He took a step back away from her, nd his hand away, as he smiled one last time at her.

" Miss Ayu, please, trust me...I know this nightmare might still come, but all you have to say is no."

He turned away slowly, and walked up to the already slid open door, but before he walked out, he turned his head slightly at her. " I'll leave you alone if you want to be...I'll be right out here if you need anything..."

[Otemba]

What Okita said made her go anraged. She quickly slapped the hand that was gently an' carefully wippin' her tears away.

With an angry voice, " U don't really understand! Ur a man! What u do have to loose! Sometimes men like u make me sick. An' then I think back an' see that I work for such men! I hate them! I them all! "

She knew what she said was wrong but, at this moment was the emotions that she was feelin'.

Calmin' her self down an' bringin' her voice unto a whisper, " Sorry...I'm being selffish...I shouldn't judge u like that."

She couldn't think of any other words to say or repay for what she had said.

The man just left without a word to say.


(sorry for being absent but, I'm back in skool an' I barely have time to update! But don't worry I'm still alive...lol)

[Mibbie.]

(( Lol, its okay))

Okita leaned his back on a wall outside, just beside Ayu's door, and looked down, remembering what she said.

" U don't really understand! Ur a man! What do you have to loose!"

His bangs, and some loose strands of his dark hair fell from behind his ears, and from his shoulders, and drooped around his face. He didn't take what she said all that offencivaly, it was actually to be expected, but still, those words...

He slowly raised his hands, and turned them over to he could stare down at his palms with sad, crescent eyes.

' In some ways...she's right. I do have nothing to loose...'

He then curled his palms into rolled up fists, but only did it gently. ' Because I have already lost everything...those many years ago...'

He then sighed slightly, closing his eyes as he put his arms flat to his sides again. He opened them again as slowly turned his head up to look out at the sky in front of him. The moon licked at his flesh gently, but he didn't pay much attention to it.

" Buhi?" Sqealed a voice that almost came out of nowhere.

Okita gasped slightly, but his expression still stayed sluggish as he looked down, only to see Saizou looking up at him with curious and inpateint eyes. " Saizou..." He whispered under his breath. Then frowned, kneeling down and taking the pig in his arms tightly.

He stood back up, just starring down at his pet that was nuzzled in his owner's arms up close to his chest. Saizou looked up at Okita, still confused.

Souji couldn't help himself but chuckle softly with sadness. " You're so lucky to be a pig..." He said in his most quiet voice.

(( Sorry, I kinda had writers block ))

[Gentatsu]

Gentatsu walked into the building.

Gentatsu: Eto...Is this not a good time? WHATS GOING ON, EH???

[Otemba]

(I'll try my best to update often, just give me time. Cuz I get a lot of skool work. But don't fret Otemba is here! lol!)

Hijikata was walking around HQ thinking, wondering, planning their next move. The ronin was this close to destroyin' everything he had worked on. So many years to be up to this level an' was yet this close to become dirt in the ground. He hated it. He hated himself for not being prepared. He's becoming soft, cheerful, happy...those emotions need to be placed in the fardest corner of his heart. He don't need to show emotion whatsoever. He has lost many good men...

He continued to walk through the halls, the veranda 'til he came across his dear friend, who had stayed by his side all along. He noticed that the man was not feeling himself...he looked hurt. He continued to walk towards the figure holding this very familiar thing that got in his nerves, but he must not pay mind to the annoying thing. Even though they did share the 'name'...

He slowly kneeled down an' took a sit next to him. He took a deep breath...

Hijikata: "beautiful night, don't u think souji?"...No reply..."So how's Ayu? Has she awaken yet?"...still no reply from the demon child. "Souji, is there anything bothering you?"

Hijikata was waiting for a reply but all he got was the squeal of the pig.

Hijikata: "*eyebrow twitched*...Hello there! I'm talking to ya not ur damn pig! What happened?! Did u fight with ur beloved Ayu or something, huh?...

Hijikata only meant to tease but, not even the tease got the young samurai to move. All Hijikata could do is sit there in pure quietness, waiting, wanting an answer to calm his inner demons who were constantly poking his sanity.

Hijikata: "C'mon Souji...I need atleast an answer from ya..."

--Ayu's room--

Ayu was softly crying. She did not cry for her state but for someone who has been there givin' her support and she cruely pushed away. She hated the way she acted towards Okita. It wasn't his fault, yet she somehow blamed him for her dismay...

Ayu: " I'm such a cruel b*tch! He was comforting me an' I pushed him away...*small chuckle*...he must think of me horroribly...but this is not goin' to stay like this...first thing at dawn...I'll shall have my revenge..."

[Mibbie.]

(( So sorry for the late reply!! T-T))

Souji's long, silky bangs covered his sorrowful eyes. To be truthful, he didn't really know what to say to Hijikata at a time like this. Okita stroked his pet pig slowly until he looked up at Hijikata with a small, polite smile as the moonlight shined off in his violet eyes.

He spoke softly, yet almost trying to make it into a happy tone, " Miss Ayu's awake...but I...*looks down at Saizou solemnly* I don't think she's feeling well..."

Okita also wanted to say something else, but as soon as his heart demanded him to say it, the words refused to come out and he had forgotton them.

Saizou, obviously not knowing what was going on just glared at Hijikata like he does at everyone else, not paticulary liking the man right now for some reason.

[Otemba]

((Don't worry 'bout the late reply, I'm busy meself too! *listening to Orange Range*...So how's skool?))

Hijikata just listened just to give him the same silent treatment he was giving him. But Souji is too smart an' he would understand why Hijikata didn't say a thing.

Finally...

"I guess, it did hurt her so much...that's why I don't having women as spies..."

Silence.....

Hijikata took a deep breath an' exhaled it slowly, he quickly got up an' started to walk...just as he was goin' to make the turn at the corner..."Get some rest Souji...She'll be fine...I need u to be in perfect health..'k...?"

He left him there...

Ayu's room---

She heard their conversation, it wasn't intentionally...
She quickly blew the candle an' started to get ready...gettin' in her spy wear and packing weapons that would be the man's dimise..

She packed shurikens with their tips dipped in poison that she had been doin' for quite some while, which was very effective...She had to move fast if she want to kill this man.

She didn't hear any noise from the outside she decided to step out of her quarter...just to find Souji sittin' still with his pet pig...

They both met eye to eye...

[Mibbie.]

(( Well, I haven't went to school just yet, but I'm goin' in a week. I'm very emotional cuz vacation's almost over T-T...Tests are evil...lol...))

Okita's eyes still seemed solemn at that very moment, but he couldn't help a small gasp to escape his mouth. Saizou became alert at this moment, still not quite sure what was happening. Poor piggy, so lost and confused. ^^;

" Miss Ayu, why are you..." Though, Souji trailed off in words, not knowing what to say.

((Sorry, TT That was so short))

[Otemba]

They stared at each other for a while...

No words.....

No motion.........

No Goodbyes........

She quickly dissappeared before the talented samurai can even make a move. She vanished onto the dark night...that soon will be ingulped by the crimson colour....

She hurried away from the dojo...not wanting to return an' apologize him for not even sayin' goodbye...this could be her last night here on earth...she regrets not telling him what she actually felt for him...

Ayu: Sorry....

Was all she could make out.