My past?

[Pendance]

Thanks for starting this board Gentatsu!



Well im not quite sure who exactly my past life is so this is a way for me to organize my info and maybe figure it out ^_^

I believe i was a samurai though, yes i know im a girl ive been told countless times, wemon werent samurai's, and ive come to ignore tht, if there was an aizu wemons brigade whos to say there werent more wemon.

anyway
reasons why:

- i had a dream one night that i was protecting a friend from an enemy, and a man came from no where and saved me, i held up my sword when he came close but he pushed it down (note for some reason when he pushed the sword down the sheath was on it) he told me i wasnt ready for such a task and then killed the enemy. This dream sticks out strongly to me for a reason.

- one night oh about mid or late june i had been drawing at my desk and happen to raise my right hand to hold my head up but my hand had blood stains on it, it was strange, when i turned the light on they dissapered though (it wasnt a shadow!)

- i meditate sometimes and the other night i had visualized myself with a sword to calm my mind (sorta i was messin around at first) but then in the vision i moved my body to attack and i heard a scream, it sounded like it came from a child, and it was too real, like i told gentatsu it was too real for comfort it actucally worried me

- i had a short dream last night that was sort of like images randomly, i could see myself in this one, as if i was veiwing it more then being in it, but the samurai looked just like me, this time i caught a glimpse of the clothes, it looked as if i had a haori over my samurai Gi it was a greyish color very dark looking, almost black but not, and the hakama pants, were strange, it seemed to have a design accross the bottome of them im not sure of their color. The dream continued showing me with two swords i think the samurai and companion swords, not sure, i kind of twisted my body around and killed two men and then i heard a nother mans battle cry and my long sword went though his neck 0-0.

all these things are pretty shocking id say, i just keep seeing the sword entering the guys neck (forgive goryness) -_- was i evil?...of was i doing my job and fighting for my beliefs...im not sure.i know all of this may sound strang or maybe even stupid to you but not to me.

[Gentatsu]

It is very interesting. You should look into it more.

[Pendance]

I may have figured it out!. I may have possibly been Nakano Yuuko (Tamagi Yuuna) (Masako) 16 year old younger sister to 22 year old Nakano Takeko. Yuuko like her sister was involed in the aizu womens brigade, she and her sister fought with the Naginata and tradditional 2 swords. Takeko dies from a gun shot and aked yuko to cut off her head and take it back to the family, takeko was honored and has a shrine deicated to her, Yuko, lived however after the wakamatsu (fall of Aizu) and in banishment she married and settled in Hokkaido.

Connections along with ones above:

The scream i heard in my dream could have been takeko's, she is rumored to have had a child like voice, i supposed it could have also been mine at the sight of her death too.

ive alway been an only child, usually people are glad to be but ive always wanted an elder sister or brother.

facinated by swords and the staff like sword which i found out later to be called the naginata.

She looks like me as i am now (current age; 15) pic below is of her at age 16



P.S i wonder if she could have known Sakurai Daizoburo? lol ^_^

[Otemba]

That sound pretty interesting...I too wonder who I was before. ^^